On the Menu: Fried Nerves

The biggest thing I am battling with at the moment is having a full plate. I have all these half done accomplishments and I cant seem to get anything completed. I have kittens that need homes. I thought I was making progress until one of them came back to me. I dont feel right taking them to the shelter as its overflowing and this problem is a direct result of my lack of responsibility. Another half done thing is childcare for my children. They are supposed to be enrolled at la petite academy with the assistance of the state on the payments. Ive done my part but I cant seem to get them to send over the paperwork to connect with la petite on my payments. I call every day diligently and receive no response. I am paying 90% of what I am making right now just to have people watch my children while I am at work. Another issue is my friend and mom role model is concerned about how quickly I am going thru gas as she is the one fronting the money for it until I get my bills situated. All of these things are causing my independent craving mind to go bonkers. My nerves are fried and I cant seem to have that pep in my step that I had last week when I started my job. I am trying to stay on top of everything but something as got to give. I made the step torwards bettering myself and I feel like all the negative energies in the universe are working against me to see me fail. I keep trying to think of solutions to the problems but I cant seem to come up with anything Im not already doing. Things get tricky when you borrow money from your friends. As much as they say they dont care and are there for you, there is a certain level of strain that is put on the relationship. It all boils down to me wanting to rely on myself and myself only because I feel like no one else can be trusted really. I know that is not exactly healthy but its true. People fail you. We are all human. I love being able to help myself and I am hell bent to not let anything or anyone stand in the way of that. Patience is a virtue I have never learned and is therefore making all this very difficult. Faith and percerverance I have learned though so maybe the two of those things can help me make it through this time without completely drowning. Thats pretty much how I feel. Like Ive been trying to keep afloat and Im loosing my strength and energy to keep floating. So, the big question is-What gives? Why am I at a roadblock? What am I supposed to learn here?